Today, my mind has been taken up with the words of David, and they seem to describe my experience, “You have shown Your people hard things; You have made us drink the wine of confusion.” Psalm 60:3. I seemed to feel all the effects of this wine — for my head was disordered, my judgment confused, and my legs trembled under me. My wisdom was baffled, my graces were tried, and my spirits were roused. I could not conceive how the present affliction could consist with everlasting love, the precious promises, the relation in which I stand to God, the tenderness of Jesus, the teaching and leading of the Holy Spirit, and what some portions of the Word — lead me to expect. I seemed to be wading in the depths of divine sovereignty, looking for Jehovah’s righteousness, and inquiring how can these things work together for my good? So foolish was I and ignorant, I was as a beast before God.
Marvelous Mercy, as Displayed in the Life and Experience of James Smith